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Since I have no one to talk to anymore other then my girlfriend I figure I would ask everyone elses opinion from here. For those who don't know I am only 19 and involved in a custody battle with my ex girlfriend over visitation rights for my beautiful little girl. I was hoping it would be a relatively easy process, she goes to court, i get papers, we go to court and settle it. I did not count on her being so immature. For startes she slapped me to cause the break up and claims it was "accidental". I feel like the last year and a half of my life now was for nothing and when she slapped me I felt my life for the past year was slapped away and for nothing, just hurts. Now since she can't be mature she has to call in threats, she ran my phone bill up to god knows what, she has her friends call me and threaten me and my girlfriend. She keeps saying she is going to get my ass beat and that she is gonna come get my girlfriend beat up. I went to court and got a restraining order for harrassment that covers myself and my girlfriend since she won't leave us alone. She has also spread petty rumors around town about everything and is ruining my life. I shouldn't listen to the rumors and I don't but apparantley everyone I know including my father is listening to them and my friends all don't speak to me anymore. Before I got the restraining order she would never let me see my daughter at all, i had her 15 minutes to myself in the past month. Now that I put a restraining order I was hoping to see my daughter without having to see her mother but the day I got mine one of the few friends I HAD left went and told her so she went and got one using false information and her family is the type to lie for her and now I cannot see my daughter period. It is just stressing me out because it has been constant ongoing bullshit for the past like month and a half and I cannot take it. It was bad enough I had to live outa my car after we broke up. Now all of these lies and b/s on top of it constantly coming up every single day is finally getting to me. She even calls my work at 5am or has her friends do it now since i got a restraining order. I am just ready to explode because their is a lot more too it. I don't know what to do. I can't stop shaking and one second I am ready to cry my eyes out from aggravation or sadness and the next second I want to kill someone and it is really affecting me and all my coworkers keep telling me they notice it and I shouldn't let it get to me but I can't help it. I miss my daughter. The only thing good that came outa this is it made me and my g/f closer because it almost tore us apart but we held together. Anyone else in this town woulda left me in a heartbeat and they already have. I can't find anyway to calm down....